Time flies when you're being Mum..

I cannot believe it..
Four whole months have passed..
That's over 120+ days
Days when I absolutely had a lot to say but didn't..
It feels like I haven't been here forever.


I can only claim being lost to the world that is Mum.


I have had huge upheavals this year, my baby hit terrible 2's and she's only One, my 5yr old preppy A.S.D child with Cerebral Palsy finally after years of putting it off had to be medicated for his behavioural issues {a whole other blog} and my oldest lad left high school *Yr.10* to attend Tafe.
Whew, that in itself is a huge drama no one warned me about in the parenting advice people tend to dole out quite frequently, and all for free.. "One day your child will decide to do something you don't want for them, like leave school and >shabang< your own ego is shattered" yes I said it, I am honest, my ego! MINE..


I envisioned my son going on to an amazingly glittery, well paid, high end, upper class job where his brilliance and intelligence born and bred from myself would shine through, but it wasn't to be.. Don't get me wrong, My lad is ridiculously clever, has amazing scope in understanding any given concept, he is just not cut out for the classroom.. His mind wanders, he has itchy feet, he is completely and utterly forgetful and disorganised, all facts I'm ashamed to admit, he got from me... But I always saw him in a red velvet cape and crown...!!??


My biggest issue with this at the moment is the fact that its increasingly being brought to my attention how judgemental people are, and it makes me irate.. It also makes me irate that it had somehow rubbed off on me also.. Ive heard it indirectly at my kids schools, my work life and also in my personal life.. People talking about 'blue collar' and second class/ second rate, and white trash.. What happened to all this amazing enlightenment we've supposedly had?? The age of Aquarius?? When did society go so backward again??

I found myself getting sucked back in to that mindset, that where you live, what you drive, what u wear etc is who you are and then I had it intimated to me, that because my son will not {supposedly} go very far in life due to leaving school *gawwff* he isn't good enough for a certain girl who is so sadly clueless in her upbringing so far, I hate to think of adulthood, she has tantrums when she doesn't get her own way!! Mum passes it off as sensitivity *what the*.. yes well, cute at 14 maybe, at 24?? I think not.. big LIGHTBULB moment, thankyou epiphany, you little nymph you..


I try very hard to live an Organic life, don't misunderstand, I'm not a peace love and mung beans, recycle your toilet paper and grow your own radishes for 'energy shakes' kinda girl, but I do try to live as real and as honestly as I can, with compassion and love for the life that I live.. I want my children to embody these important ideals also, things that I believe only coming from a certain lifestyle can give you, things like appreciation for every chance you are given, without on some level feeling like you are entitled.. Thankfulness for all of your moments, the laughter, the smiles even sometimes the lessons being learnt from your tears.. I want my kids to appreciate silly things like just because they aren't brand name $200 jeans doesn't make the jeans that cover your bum from a lesser label any less worthy or the fact you are wearing them, make you less worthy.. If $50 jeans make us blue collar white trash then its a label I am happy to wear...


I want my kids to come from integrity and honesty. To be really real.. So when my son asked me if he could leave mainstream high school to finish yr.10 in Tafe and then start a Carpentry*builder* apprenticeship I was beside myself, and then I remembered that in actual fact a trade doesn't not equate to a 'lower socio economic' scale, or lack of intelligence, it rather gives my son a place to begin because school (and who are we kidding, its a joke these days whats being taught) wasn't going to ever take him as far as he could go.. Not only will he be working whilst also learning and still schooling he will be using his hands and creating, an art form no longer really passed on through the generations from father to son anymore. Something that has been lost to this world of computers and high finance and brand based worth, in all its shallowness, an art form like woodworking has quietly died.. I'm actually really happy when I think about it now, that not only has my son made an amazingly mature decision, I wont have to worry about him because even if the market drops out or there is a share crash, atleast he can build a roof over his own head..


and if the shit really hits the fan, The ARK was made from wood yeah!!??


till tomorrow (yes I promise to return) 
Mama, Madly...!!!